...and so it continues. No, not continues, drags on. In what seems like an endless loop of Groundhog Days. The checks and balances don’t ever really seem to tip to the side of optimistic change.
Vaccines are here...yes. So are these wicked variants.
Vaccine supply is increasing....so are hospital cases and stays.
It is indeed like a race and we never seem to get ahead.
Yesterday I cancelled my reservations for San Diego in January. My first payment was due on the 15 and it just seems too uncertain to make any kind of international travel plans. The land borders are still closed. It looks like numbers might soon start to plateau/decline but they aren’t there yet. It only seemed fair to Pete to give the reservation up so he can try and book a more certain rental. It seems like the prudent thing to do and then readdress the travel situation in the fall and hope something is available, even if it’s for a shorter or a different time. I think that’s the best/all than can be done at this time.
I’m now past the 3 week mark of having my first jab. On one hand, I feel more confident and secure when I need to go out but, on the other hand, I’ve been questioning how this affects my day-to-day living. I did go for a massage. I wonder about going home though and or doing things like going to a movie. I’m certainly not comfortable going to a restaurant yet. It appears things are changing, but they sure seem to be remaining the same.
My prediction is that May will continue to be nasty-in terms of high numbers and hospitalization. But....we are to receive 2 million vaccines a week, starting this week, in May and June. This will add to the 33% of us who have already had our first one, so it can’t NOT start making a difference....right? I think my mid-June, more people will start getting their second jab and we will start to see a slow and steady improvement and a turn toward better, easier days. I have to believe this.
My days feel all the same. Leisurely mornings with coffee and the news, walking, audiobooks, painting and then, suppertime...it’s always freaking suppertime!
I know things could be worse. I really do. And I try not to counter that with “yes, but it could also be so much better”.
Patience. Focusing on the positive. Appreciating the moment. Counting blessings. Good health. Safety and security. Walks. Warmer weather. Longer days. No work stress.
These remain my focus until thoughts of travel and unencumbered time with friends and friends can become normal again and we can break this endless loop that has become life in covid times.
